I excitedly cooked up bright, colour-coded charts in my head that could be translated into monthly graphs – confident that clear patterns would soon begin to emerge from my raw data. It all seemed so genius and flawless at the time. Now… not so much.
I’m having real trouble maintaining it lately as I struggle to pin down my overall mood. Some days I experience more than one mood (more like 100 – okay I’m exaggerating but you get what I mean), and some days I feel completely numb and “moodless”. I have no clue what my normal is.
Perhaps I’ve oversimplified it and need to add more categories to my chart, although that would make it harder to graph. I want to keep going with it because I know that keeping a log (or at least trying to) can be beneficial, but I’m now obsessing over whether I’m doing it effectively.
Sheesh. My brain is thoroughly boggled.